Monday, October 26, 2009
sunny tuesday morning
sunny Tuesday morning...i need to run some errands for my inay and tatay (thats what i called my parents). i dont know but my tuesday morning is very light feeling....maybe its because of Leighton Meester's song...yep she knows how to sing and her voice is quite good and relaxing...you go girl....love your songs....anyways got to go....a busy day ahead...good day everyone...
Sunday, October 25, 2009
sickly monday...
morning everyone...it is first day of the week but unfortunately im on my sickly mode. for about a week we dont have mermaid (i call our helper mermaid)because her father died due to heart attack. anyways i was the one doing the household chores and etc...my body really hurts and as well as my head. i hope our mermaid come back already. i dont know if i can stand another week...huhuhu
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
missing old boss
i was so surprised that one of my treasured mentor replied to me when i tried to chat with her on facebook....it was unexpected because i've tried do many time to approach her but she always ignore me. Due to some misunderstandings we parted ways without any words to each other....but i cant explain the feeling...it is really nice hearing things from her again....i hope this won't end here....
Time to move on...
Wishing you felt the same way,
Having to carry on each day,
Trying to except your change of heart,
I never knew you'd tear mine apart,
I could satisfy your needs,
And help you reach your goals and dreams,
But just because I want us together,
Doesn’t mean ill wait forever,
I want you boy so very bad,
You'll be the love I never had,
I believe that we are meant to be,
But obviously you cannot see,
So I must maintain my pain and simply move on,
And face the fact that your feelings are gone...
Having to carry on each day,
Trying to except your change of heart,
I never knew you'd tear mine apart,
I could satisfy your needs,
And help you reach your goals and dreams,
But just because I want us together,
Doesn’t mean ill wait forever,
I want you boy so very bad,
You'll be the love I never had,
I believe that we are meant to be,
But obviously you cannot see,
So I must maintain my pain and simply move on,
And face the fact that your feelings are gone...
Gossip Girl Spoilers Season 2 Episode 18: Blair Waldorf’s Day Off
Chuck is having trouble dealing with the mystery that was his father and the way in which his spare time was managed. Meanwhile, Nate catches Vanessa flirting with another guy, and at a moment of desperation, reluctantly turns to Blair for help. Dan purposely ignores Serena’s calls and tells Miss Carr that things are beyond a little complicated between the two of them right now. Miss Carr chooses not to take her job back and spends most of her time in an empty apartment with her new fling, who doesn’t seem to be quite grieving from his recent break-up. At the same time, Lily and Rufus question where their relationship is going and talk casually about merging their households, Chuck however, is against the idea, and does everything in his power to stop it.
(one of my favorite episodes....)
(one of my favorite episodes....)
if i only knew
If I only knew it would be the last time I’d see you fall asleep, I would tuck you in more tightly, and whisper I love you oh so slightly.
If I only knew it would be the last time I’d see you walk out the door, I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for so many more.
If I only knew it would be the last time I’d hear your voice calling back to me, “I Love You”, I would have recorded it on tape, every action and word, so then I could play it over and over again.
If I only knew it would be the last time I could spare an extra minute or two, to stop and say that “I Love You”, instead of assuming that you already know, I would of spent so many more then a few.
If I only knew that my assurance of you having another day to share wasn’t so definite I would have shared it instead of letting it slip away. By me thinking surely there’s always tomorrow to make up for the time overlooked, before we know it that time could be took.
We always think there’s always another day to say our “I Love You’s” and certainly there’s another chance to say our “anything I can do’s”?, but just in case I might be wrong, and today is all I get, I’d like to say how much I Love You, and Hope you never forget!
Tomorrow is never promised to anyone, whether you are young our old, and today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved ones tight.
So instead of waiting until tomarrow, why not make it Today? For if tomorrow never comes, you’d surely regret the day you chose to overlook, or didn’t take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or a simple little kiss.
Why find out that the time you found you where to busy, only turned out to be someone’s last wish, you never granted. So hold your loved ones close today, whisper in there ear, tell them how much you love them and that you’ll always hold them dear. Never just assume there’s going to be another year. Take the time to share some cheer. So when the time comes they say goodbye, it will be easier to let it fly.
If I only knew it would be the last time I’d see you walk out the door, I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for so many more.
If I only knew it would be the last time I’d hear your voice calling back to me, “I Love You”, I would have recorded it on tape, every action and word, so then I could play it over and over again.
If I only knew it would be the last time I could spare an extra minute or two, to stop and say that “I Love You”, instead of assuming that you already know, I would of spent so many more then a few.
If I only knew that my assurance of you having another day to share wasn’t so definite I would have shared it instead of letting it slip away. By me thinking surely there’s always tomorrow to make up for the time overlooked, before we know it that time could be took.
We always think there’s always another day to say our “I Love You’s” and certainly there’s another chance to say our “anything I can do’s”?, but just in case I might be wrong, and today is all I get, I’d like to say how much I Love You, and Hope you never forget!
Tomorrow is never promised to anyone, whether you are young our old, and today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved ones tight.
So instead of waiting until tomarrow, why not make it Today? For if tomorrow never comes, you’d surely regret the day you chose to overlook, or didn’t take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or a simple little kiss.
Why find out that the time you found you where to busy, only turned out to be someone’s last wish, you never granted. So hold your loved ones close today, whisper in there ear, tell them how much you love them and that you’ll always hold them dear. Never just assume there’s going to be another year. Take the time to share some cheer. So when the time comes they say goodbye, it will be easier to let it fly.
is it love....
For all you people who say “love you” when you have
no clue what love is exactly!!! something to ponder upon…
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest??
It isn’t love, it’s like.
You can’t keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right??
It isn’t love, it’s lust.
Are you proud, and eager to show them off??
It isn’t love, it’s luck.
Do you want them because you know they’re there??
It isn’t love, it’s loneliness.
Are you there because it’s what everyone wants??
It isn’t love, it’s loyalty.
Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand??
It isn’t love, it’s low confidence.
Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don’t want to hurt them??
It isn’t love, it’s pity.
Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat??
It isn’t love, its infatuation.
Do you pardon their faults because you care about them??
It isn’t love, it’s friendship.
Do you tell them everyday they are the only one you think of??
It isn’t love, it’s a lie.
Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake??
It isn’t love, it’s charity.
Does your heart ache and break when they’re sad??
Then it’s love.
Do you cry for their pain, even when they’re strong??
Then it’s love.
Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts??
Then it’s love.
Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you there??
Then it’s love.
Do you accept their faults because they’re a part of who they are??
Then it’s love.
Would you give them your heart, your life, your death??
Then it’s love.
Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why do we love? Why is it all we search for in life? This pain, this agony? Why is it all we long for?
This torture, this powerful death of self? Why?
The answer is so simple because it’s LOVE. It is such an addictive thing that even people who are not having it wish to experience it and share it with others.
no clue what love is exactly!!! something to ponder upon…
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest??
It isn’t love, it’s like.
You can’t keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right??
It isn’t love, it’s lust.
Are you proud, and eager to show them off??
It isn’t love, it’s luck.
Do you want them because you know they’re there??
It isn’t love, it’s loneliness.
Are you there because it’s what everyone wants??
It isn’t love, it’s loyalty.
Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand??
It isn’t love, it’s low confidence.
Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don’t want to hurt them??
It isn’t love, it’s pity.
Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat??
It isn’t love, its infatuation.
Do you pardon their faults because you care about them??
It isn’t love, it’s friendship.
Do you tell them everyday they are the only one you think of??
It isn’t love, it’s a lie.
Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake??
It isn’t love, it’s charity.
Does your heart ache and break when they’re sad??
Then it’s love.
Do you cry for their pain, even when they’re strong??
Then it’s love.
Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts??
Then it’s love.
Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you there??
Then it’s love.
Do you accept their faults because they’re a part of who they are??
Then it’s love.
Would you give them your heart, your life, your death??
Then it’s love.
Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why do we love? Why is it all we search for in life? This pain, this agony? Why is it all we long for?
This torture, this powerful death of self? Why?
The answer is so simple because it’s LOVE. It is such an addictive thing that even people who are not having it wish to experience it and share it with others.
broken inside
Hidden behind a smile
I'm not okay
I just want to run
Really far away
I cant escape this pain
I'm losing control
I'm going insane
No one understands, nor do they try
To look past these eyes
To see my lonely cries
My family doesn't see it, they just ask from time to time
Ive become accustomed
To having no one by my side
My friend say It'll be okay
How would they know
They don't go through what I do every day
I'm tired of feeling like I have no voice
They all assume I'm fine
I guess I have no choice
I just want to cry sometimes
&& pretend I'm not hurting inside
I rather just say "No, I'm not okay"
Rather than lie and say "I'm fine"
Its like they only see what they want to see
They don't even try to know
The pain is overpowering me
So many nights
Ive thought and questioning this
This game called life
They say things happen for a reason
If so I'm constantly dealt the wrong fate
I always get let down,
Not even a little hesitate
The only way to equal myself with my pain
Is to take as many pills as I can
Over and Over again
1,2,3,4
So out of it
Just popping 15 more
I'm now stuck laying in this bed
Zoning out
Replaying all the lies said
Just wishing they would all try and see
The pain that over powers me.....
I'm not okay
I just want to run
Really far away
I cant escape this pain
I'm losing control
I'm going insane
No one understands, nor do they try
To look past these eyes
To see my lonely cries
My family doesn't see it, they just ask from time to time
Ive become accustomed
To having no one by my side
My friend say It'll be okay
How would they know
They don't go through what I do every day
I'm tired of feeling like I have no voice
They all assume I'm fine
I guess I have no choice
I just want to cry sometimes
&& pretend I'm not hurting inside
I rather just say "No, I'm not okay"
Rather than lie and say "I'm fine"
Its like they only see what they want to see
They don't even try to know
The pain is overpowering me
So many nights
Ive thought and questioning this
This game called life
They say things happen for a reason
If so I'm constantly dealt the wrong fate
I always get let down,
Not even a little hesitate
The only way to equal myself with my pain
Is to take as many pills as I can
Over and Over again
1,2,3,4
So out of it
Just popping 15 more
I'm now stuck laying in this bed
Zoning out
Replaying all the lies said
Just wishing they would all try and see
The pain that over powers me.....
friends for keeps....
after ten years i guess...or more....it was a good feeling for me because i was able to spend more time with my friends....we we're able to have a swimming party or get together...even if some of them wasn't able to show up....sad but my chubby chicks came with his son inigo....the kid was so cute...also gian....our inaanak...hay...time goes by....and our generation is over...my friends are talking about how big their babies when they delivered them...or what brand of milk are their babies were using right now...weird but seeing my friends happy feels good because i know that they are contented with their live...(is it real ....hehehe....jest...) but honestly spending time with them ....i wish we can go back during our high school days... it is one hell of an experience....admit it friends...because during those times....we really had so many hardships and trials...there was the time when all teachers called us "NOTORIOUS" take note notorious...if only they knew that we were just goofing around....my friends and i don't know where it all started...its just during la salle fair that we ended up hanging around...and complements all our attitudes....weird but its true...one thing that is common about us is that we are "brats". . . .people think that we are bunch of spoiled brats. they always have the misconception of what we are doing....during those times we are just enjoying our lives like normal teenagers do....i remember those time that we we're sent to our administrative assistant because we are noisy, we bully are teacher, misbehaving inside the classroom, fighting with fellow students and doing illegal things . . .hehehe... yeah right....but that was before....just wanted to try different things and stuff....you know teenagers...want to explore things....but kidding aside we learned so many things during high school years....and after 10 to 12 years we saw each other...and it was a good feeling...tonight i experienced something that i will never forget in my entire life...i was so glad i have my friends to be there....they stood by me....i was really shocked....i never thought that it would happen to me...i wish it was a bad dream....sorry guys if i ruined the night....im really sorry but i swear from the buttom of my heart "THANK YOU SO MUCH AND I LOVE YAH GUYS" MWAH.....you've always been there for me ever since....even if we meet other people or friends along the way....i know our friendship will last forever....it is tested through time.....love you guys....see you soon....till then.....friends for keeps....
B.E.H.I.N.D.
Behind my eyes I softly cry holding this pain so close inside
behind my smile I slowly frown as my tears come rushing down
a feeling inside I tried to hide suppressed by my deepest fears
and I still feel the pain after all of these years
Think of what you put me through the tears I cried
and feelings that would not subside
I trusted you to no end but you betrayed me even as a friend
though I still love you and probably always will
I blame you for my heart ache and the reason my tears fell
I forgive you for the bruises on my heart
and my whole world just falling apart
but I love you for showing me the meaning in each day
and the truth behind the pain
you were truly a blessing and the reason my heart sang
behind my smile I slowly frown as my tears come rushing down
a feeling inside I tried to hide suppressed by my deepest fears
and I still feel the pain after all of these years
Think of what you put me through the tears I cried
and feelings that would not subside
I trusted you to no end but you betrayed me even as a friend
though I still love you and probably always will
I blame you for my heart ache and the reason my tears fell
I forgive you for the bruises on my heart
and my whole world just falling apart
but I love you for showing me the meaning in each day
and the truth behind the pain
you were truly a blessing and the reason my heart sang
Signs of a Healthy Relationship
· Communication is open and spontaneous (including listening).
· Rules/boundaries are clear and explicit, yet allows flexibility.
· Individuality, freedom and personal identity is enhanced.
· Each enjoys doing things for self, as well as for the other.
· Play, humor, and having fun together is commonplace.
· Each does not attempt to “fix” or control the other.
· Acceptance of self and other (for real selves).
· Assertiveness: feelings and needs are expressed.
· Humility: able to let go of the need to “be right”.
· Self confidence and security in own worth.
· Conflict is faced directly and resolved.
· Openness to constructive feedback.
· Each is trustful of the other.
· Balance of giving and receiving.
· Negotiations are fair and democratic.
· Tolerance: forgiveness of self and other.
· Mistakes are accepted and learned from.
· Willingness to take risks and be vulnerable.
· Other meaningful relationships and interests exist.
· Each can enjoy being alone and privacy is respected.
· Personal growth, change and exploration is encouraged.
· Continuity and consistency is present in the commitment.
· Balance of oneness (closeness) and separation from each other.
· Responsibility for own behaviors and happiness (not blaming other).
· Rules/boundaries are clear and explicit, yet allows flexibility.
· Individuality, freedom and personal identity is enhanced.
· Each enjoys doing things for self, as well as for the other.
· Play, humor, and having fun together is commonplace.
· Each does not attempt to “fix” or control the other.
· Acceptance of self and other (for real selves).
· Assertiveness: feelings and needs are expressed.
· Humility: able to let go of the need to “be right”.
· Self confidence and security in own worth.
· Conflict is faced directly and resolved.
· Openness to constructive feedback.
· Each is trustful of the other.
· Balance of giving and receiving.
· Negotiations are fair and democratic.
· Tolerance: forgiveness of self and other.
· Mistakes are accepted and learned from.
· Willingness to take risks and be vulnerable.
· Other meaningful relationships and interests exist.
· Each can enjoy being alone and privacy is respected.
· Personal growth, change and exploration is encouraged.
· Continuity and consistency is present in the commitment.
· Balance of oneness (closeness) and separation from each other.
· Responsibility for own behaviors and happiness (not blaming other).
believe in yourself.....
Believe in yourself…
in the power you have
to control your own life
day by day.
Believe in the strength
that you have deep inside
and your faith will help
show you the way.
Believe in tomorrow
and what it will bring,
let a hopeful heart
carry you through
for things will work out
if you trust and believe
there’s no limit
to what you can do!
in the power you have
to control your own life
day by day.
Believe in the strength
that you have deep inside
and your faith will help
show you the way.
Believe in tomorrow
and what it will bring,
let a hopeful heart
carry you through
for things will work out
if you trust and believe
there’s no limit
to what you can do!
is it love???
For all you people who say “i love you” when you have
no clue what love is exactly!!! something to ponder upon…
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest??
It isn’t love, it’s like.
You can’t keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right??
It isn’t love, it’s lust.
Are you proud, and eager to show them off??
It isn’t love, it’s luck.
Do you want them because you know they’re there??
It isn’t love, it’s loneliness.
Are you there because it’s what everyone wants??
It isn’t love, it’s loyalty.
Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand??
It isn’t love, it’s low confidence.
Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don’t want to hurt them??
It isn’t love, it’s pity.
Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat??
It isn’t love, its infatuation.
Do you pardon their faults because you care about them??
It isn’t love, it’s friendship.
Do you tell them everyday they are the only one you think of??
It isn’t love, it’s a lie.
Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake??
It isn’t love, it’s charity.
Does your heart ache and break when they’re sad??
Then it’s love.
Do you cry for their pain, even when they’re strong??
Then it’s love.
Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts??
Then it’s love.
Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you there??
Then it’s love.
Do you accept their faults because they’re a part of who they are??
Then it’s love.
Would you give them your heart, your life, your death??
Then it’s love.
Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why do we love? Why is it all we search for in life? This pain, this agony? Why is it all we long for?
This torture, this powerful death of self? Why?
The answer is so simple because it’s LOVE. It is such an addictive thing that even people who are not having it wish to experience it and share it with others.
no clue what love is exactly!!! something to ponder upon…
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest??
It isn’t love, it’s like.
You can’t keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right??
It isn’t love, it’s lust.
Are you proud, and eager to show them off??
It isn’t love, it’s luck.
Do you want them because you know they’re there??
It isn’t love, it’s loneliness.
Are you there because it’s what everyone wants??
It isn’t love, it’s loyalty.
Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand??
It isn’t love, it’s low confidence.
Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don’t want to hurt them??
It isn’t love, it’s pity.
Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat??
It isn’t love, its infatuation.
Do you pardon their faults because you care about them??
It isn’t love, it’s friendship.
Do you tell them everyday they are the only one you think of??
It isn’t love, it’s a lie.
Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake??
It isn’t love, it’s charity.
Does your heart ache and break when they’re sad??
Then it’s love.
Do you cry for their pain, even when they’re strong??
Then it’s love.
Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts??
Then it’s love.
Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you there??
Then it’s love.
Do you accept their faults because they’re a part of who they are??
Then it’s love.
Would you give them your heart, your life, your death??
Then it’s love.
Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why do we love? Why is it all we search for in life? This pain, this agony? Why is it all we long for?
This torture, this powerful death of self? Why?
The answer is so simple because it’s LOVE. It is such an addictive thing that even people who are not having it wish to experience it and share it with others.
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